Sunday, January 17, 2010

...at all.

I've not been taking care of myself lately...at all. This past week I basically ran on about three hours of sleep per night(and that's being generous), which is not good...at all. I was making things and trying to plan a bit for an event and it went well, then my system was like "oh hey, remember me? the one you don't feed well and deprive of sleep? well, guess what? we are your innards and we are putting you on lock-down for your negligence" and I konked out, which was not good...at all. I crashed and burned and after cabbing home, was so annoyed with being alive that I just drank more and watched Project Runway with tears in my eyes. I still have not properly slept and I try to relax, but it's hard because I just don't feel comfy in this skin. I have issues and I have trouble fitting in and I just cannot seem to handle things mentally anymore, so I just drink to calm my ass down a bit...then I don't stop and I just burn out and I think it may end up being the end of me? It's a bit like an IAMX lyric :
I am terrified, I think too much,
I get emotional when I drink too much

Anyway, I have big hopes for HURTS because in addition to taking me to another time and another place (perhaps in my room circa 1986 listening to college radio on my headphones), they make lush music. The minimal style of their videos is also appreciated, as it is bold without over-the-top bullshit.

HURTS - Blood, Tears & Gold


I think I'm the only person I know that has to work tomorrow. Every other office seems to be closed for Martin Luther King Jr Day, but not us. I am outraged, but the show must go on and I will maybe spend the evening watching my current obsession The Wire, which is so, so good.

Here's a goody that has been stuck in my head since watching Synth Britannia, which is one of the better documentaries to come out lately:

John Foxx - Underpass


Hopefully I will be bright-eyed and bushy-tailed by the next entry.